The smell of the freshly dug soil hadn’t sunk in completely and there I lied in a dark world waiting to befriend the arthropods and the microbes. I was feeling incomplete. For the first time in my life I was away from my soul. I had no idea where it was. Did it get someone like me or someone better than me to reside in, was the question on my mind.
“Hello! You there?”, suddenly a voice queried. It derailed me from the train of thoughts I was in. For a moment, I thought who could that be, who would want to look for a soulless body? The voice and its echo sounded familiar. I realized it’s the same voice which used to send me for guilt trips whenever I did something ‘not right’. The voice that reprimanded my evil being every now and then because it took everything as acceptable and done thing.
Sometimes I thought why does my own soul hate me so much and act against me all the time?
“Is someone there or are you dead?”, the voice probed again. I replied, “Yeah, I am here. What’s the matter? Tell me.” I felt like continuing with harsher words such as “Of course I am dead and that’s why I am lying here, you moron. But you won’t understand my agonies because you are still flying free in the open air.”
The voice sounded regretful for asking that question, but I could not see whether it was really feeling apologetic or was just modulating itself to sound so.
It did not have any face. At times, I would get vexed by its high moral grounds and ethics and call it a Faceless Sadist.
It continued, “Look, from the time I left you this morning, I am searching for someone like you, but I haven’t got anybody yet. I feel like I shouldn’t have departed from you so early. You are a good fellow. I am sorry.”
My soul replied crookedly, “That’s what I wanted you to confess. Do you even realize how many people you have hurt, left them sad and in despair? I pitied them every time you acted so ruthless. You have been selfish all through. I wanted to get rid of you after you started encouraging your evil side.
Whenever I had put you in a testing condition, you faltered. You failed! I knew you called me a Faceless Sadist, I am your soul after all – your better half. I was just waiting to make you experience all these so that next time you wouldn’t do what you have done in this life time.”
A faceless sadist. Indeed!
Our body is a spontaneous combination of chemical elements, primarily, carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, and nitrogen. It starts with those and it ends with those. Hope we realize it’s our soul that makes us individual unique personas.
P.S.: Wrote this blog way back in 2010. Don’t ask questions about what made me write it then and publish it now, in 2019.
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